We all have a sense of longing for more. Even in the best of times we know there lingers, a sense of dissatisfaction deep within our soul. Deuteronomy 4:29 says, But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find Him if you look for HIm with all your heart and with and all your soul.

In Acts 17, Paul says, From one man He made every nation of men, that they would inhabit the whole earth; and He determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live. God did this so that men would seek Him and perhaps reach out for Him and find Him though He is not far from each one of us. For in Him we live and move and have our being.

So we seek God and learn He indeed is the One who truly satisfies. Isaiah 58 says, The LORD will guide you always; He will satisfy your need in a sun scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring who's waters never fail.

This blog is made up of reflections, that are to me, like dew drops in the garden. Things that spring from the pages of scripture and refresh my heart. Whispers, ideas, hope, inklings, inspiration, glimmers, breadcrumbs...all pointing me in the direction of my heart's true home which is the Lord.

Surely or only goodness, mercy, and unfailing love shall follow me all the days of my life and through the length of my days the house of the Lord [and His Presence] shall be my dwelling place. Psalm 23:6


Sunday, November 23, 2014

The Rhythm of Giving Thanks


Luke 17: 11 As Jesus continued on toward Jerusalem, He reached the border between Galilee and Samaria. 12 As He entered a village there, ten lepers stood at a distance, 13 crying out, “Jesus, Master, have mercy on us!”
14 He looked at them and said, “Go show yourselves to the priests.” And as they went, they were cleansed of their leprosy.
15 One of them, when he saw that he was healed, came back to Jesus, shouting, “Praise God!” 16 He fell to the ground at Jesus’ feet, thanking him for what He had done. This man was a Samaritan.
17 Jesus asked, “Didn’t I heal ten men? Where are the other nine?18 Has no one returned to give glory to God except this foreigner?”19 And Jesus said to the man, “Stand up and go. Your faith has healed you.

They were sick and clamoring for Jesus' attention. They knew He healed the sick. He saw them and responded. He told them to go show themselves to the priests. They were healed as they went.

They did what He said to do (they responded in faith) and He healed them. So often that is how it is with us. He asks us to go, and as we go, we are healed. We want the instant healing but it is often in the process true healing occurs.  Somewhere along the way, we notice that we are more whole. He has done work in us.

So these men, happy and excited, went on their merry ways, back into the lives they could only dream of when they were sick. They had what they wanted. The One responsible was quickly forgotten.

All of them except for one that is.  One man came back and fell at the feet of Jesus. This man, the most unexpected one at that, wanted to thank Jesus. He wanted to worship Him. Jesus marveled at this. He spoke a blessing over him and sent him off once again.

How guilty are we, of taking for granted the amazing things God does for us, day in and day out. Even in the midst of the things that are difficult and challenging there are things we can be thankful for. Where is our focus? On the blessings in our lives or on our problems, our pain?

Not to say that we can't bring our heartaches to Him. I just read Psalm 55 which is full of David's fear and anguish. Yet he lands at the end of the Psalm with, "But as for me, I trust in You." He constantly brought his focus back to God. He knew where his hope was, his help, his salvation. 

Our lives should be characterized by a rhythm of calling out to God, of being sent out but also returning to Him. This is called relationship.  We have the incredible privilege of being invited into a relationship with Jesus Christ, with God. He sees us from afar and speaks to us. He heals us. He keeps His hand on us, even when we don't see it.  Our part is respond to Him. To go out, to walk in faith, yet come back to worship Him and to give Him thanks. It is in this rhythm of life with/in Him, that He brings healing to our lives, body, soul, and spirit.

Lord, I am thankful for your many blessings. It is so easy to take things for granted, to ignore the fact that every breath I take is a gift. Forgive me that I am often full of a kind of passive ingratitude. I can get so consumed with the things I don't have, things that aren't right. Help me to patient. Help me to look around and see Your finger prints all around me as I trust in your goodness, your faithfulness, your provision, and your love.


Saturday, September 6, 2014

Who Is This?


Jesus says, come along. Let's hop in this boat and go to the other side of the lake.  He was doing life with His disciples. His invitation as always, was to follow Him, to be with Him. They were in the school of Jesus. So off they went. 

Jesus found this time away from the pressing crowds an opportunity for a nap and promptly fell asleep. Our God in His humanity, experiencing exhaustion, enjoying sleep.

The storm comes up and it says "they were in danger." Some of these men made their living at sea and there was no question they were in a perilous situation. So they wake up Jesus. Good move. They turned to the One Who could save them.

I'm pretty sure though, they didn't know what was about to happen next. Jesus stood up and rebuked the wind and the waves. And all was calm. How incredible that must have been to see.  He revealed His authority over nature, over the sea and the sky. Nothing could have prepared them for this.

They were obviously shocked so His question to them was, "Where is your faith?" Their question back was, "Who is this?" 

This is the question we all must come to terms with. Who is this? Who is Jesus?  His question to them indicated that their faith was too small. He wanted them to really grasp Who He was, the magnitude of His power and authority.

He is commander over all of creation because He is Creator.  How can I worry and fear when He is Lord and King over EVERYTHING? 

They were learning as I am learning, by being with Him. They were, just as I am, learning to trust Him. That was and is what He ultimately wants us to learn. That we can trust Him. Our lives are safe with Him.

My reading in the Psalms this morning so perfectly goes with this.

The LORD is my Light and my Salvation 
- whom shall I fear or dread? 
The Lord is the Refuge and Stronghold of my life 
- of whom shall I be afraid?
Psalm 27:1

All I needed was this one verse. He is all I need. I can trust Him with my life. I am safe with Him

Thank you sweet Savior.

Sunday, August 31, 2014

God's Good Purposes


They "rejected God's purpose for themselves" (Luke 7:30) This was the Pharisees and the so called experts in the law. They refused to be baptized by John. They saw no need to repent, no need to turn their lives around. They had it all together. Everyone knew that. Life was good. Why would they need to change? 

Jesus saw it differently, as He did so often. He saw their false security, their smugness. He knew how lost they were in their pride and complacency. The sad thing is they missed it. They missed it big time. They missed all God had for them, His good purposes for their lives. 

Sobering. Scary how easy it is to dig in our heals and cling to our little kingdoms, our comfortable little worlds. I don't want to miss God's good purpose for my life.  I want His Kingdom come, His will be done and that starts in my heart. It begins with understanding that His purposes are good, that He loves us and has our very best interest in mind. Repentance is merely turning to Him. He takes care of the rest.

My prayer from the Psalms this morning, speaks to what turning our hearts to Him looks like. Amazing how thousands of years ago, David wrote this psalm that is so relevant for me, today. No matter what my life looks like, this is the answer.

Unto You, O LORD, do I bring my life.
O my God, I trust, lean on, rely on, and am confident in You. 

Let me not be put to shame 
or [my hope in You] be disappointed; 
let not my enemies triumph over me.

Yes, let none who trust 
and wait hopefully 
and look for You 
be put to shame or be disappointed; 
let them be ashamed who forsake the right 
or deal treacherously without cause.

Show me Your ways, O LORD; 
teach me Your paths. 
Guide me in Your truth and faithfulness 
and teach me, 
for You are the God of my salvation; 
for You [You only and altogether] 
do I wait [expectantly] all the day long.
Psalm 25:1-5 AMP


Monday, August 11, 2014

Take Courage!



Immediately after this, Jesus insisted that His disciples get back into the boat and head across the lake to Bethsaida, while He sent the people home. After telling everyone good-bye, He went up into the hills by himself to pray. 
Late that night, the disciples were in their boat in the middle of the lake, and Jesus was alone on land. He saw that they were in serious trouble, rowing hard and struggling against the wind and waves. 
About three o’clock in the morning Jesus came toward them, walking on the water. He intended to go past them, but when they saw Him walking on the water, they cried out in terror, thinking He was a ghost. They were all terrified when they saw Him. But Jesus spoke to them at once. “Don’t be afraid,” He said. “Take courage! I am here!” 
Mark 6:45-50

Jesus needed to get away to commune with His Father. He had been pouring His life out. In His humanity, He needed to be refueled and refreshed. After all He had done, He had to be bone tired but it wasn't sleep He sought. He needed to be loved on by His Father. This withdrawing to be alone with God was a regular habit of His. We see it all over the gospels, tucked away here and there. It is a habit we too need to cultivate with consistency. How could we need time with God any less than Jesus?

What really touched me, reading this, is Jesus saw from afar that the disciples were in trouble. The distance was nothing to Him. It was the middle of the night. The darkness was not a problem. The fact that He saw them is important to me. I believe He sees me too. When life gets hard, knowing He has His eye on me makes all the difference in the world. 

His disciples were struggling against the storm yet He didn't go right out to them.  He waited til the wee hours of the morning to come strolling across the lake. He knew they were going to be okay. He didn't even seem to be planning to stop until they freaked out and thought He was a ghost. So He did stop. He told them  to take courage.  He was there. There was no need to fear. 

This was the learning curve they were on. He was teaching them that they were okay. He had their backs whether He was physically present with them or not. After the resurrection we see these men had learned well that they could rely on Jesus, even though He wasn't with them in body any more. But in this story? They were still learning. The exciting thing is we see Peter got a glimpse of what courage could really look like. He walked on the water during this time on the lake at 3:00am! Jesus was patiently teachingHis followers, to be world changers. 

He is teaching me too. He wants me to take courage. I am so thankful that when I am alone with Him, He says to me, "Take courage. It is I." 

Monday, June 2, 2014

Led to Be Alone...With Him



Jesus took Peter, James, and John 
with Him and led them  
up to a high mountain, 
where they were all alone. 
Mark 9:2

Jesus led them to a place to be alone with Him. He had plans for their time together. They had no idea what He had in store for them up on that mountain top. Once they got there He was transfigured before their very eyes. They saw Him in a dazzling display of heaven's glory, shining brilliance, talking to Elijah and Moses. They were witnessing heavenly things. They saw the reality of Jesus' divine nature with their very eyes.

And then God came along. He wrapped them in a cloud and spoke to them. They heard the Voice of God. Peter had some ideas for God but God cut him off and said, "This is My Son, Whom I love. Listen to Him." And it was over. That was it. 

The message? Jesus is deity. He is God's beloved Son. They saw it. They heard it. Jesus is divine. He is radiant, full of glory. God affirmed Jesus and gave them a message.  Listen to Him.

How often do I resist when when He tries to lead me away, to be alone with Him? How many moments of His sweet revelation, His encouragement have I missed? How often am I just too busy, preoccupied with the mundane matters of life? Or maybe I am wallowing in difficulties and can't seem to find my way to that mountain top? Why do I clamor after the busyness and noise? How easily I forget how good it is to get away with Jesus. 

And then, how often do I question His Word? I read in the gospels time after time, Jesus imploring people with the words, "I tell you the truth." He so wants us to listen and believe what He has to say. He is the Way. The Truth. The Life. Life, truth and the way (direction). Isn't that what we all want? What He says is for our good. The beloved Son came to earth as an extravagant display of God's love. The Son's life was completely lived out in flawless love for all of mankind. 

What He has to say to me is out of love. He invites me to find time to come away with Him, to be alone with Him, so He can speak to me. He wants to speak truth and love into my life, to encourage and strength me. To guide and direct my steps.

Your Word is a lamp to my feet 
and a light for my path.
Psalm 119:105

Lord, I am so thankful that You lead me to times and places to be alone with You. Not that you aren't always with me, but You invite me into special times, of lingering with You. You speak love into my life, love that is never spoiled or broken. I thank you that step by step, you shine Your light on the path before me. Walking in that light and listening to You will always keep me close, to You.

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Go and See


More from Mark 6. I think I need to process this more as I see more and more in this tiny part of the story that applies to me. The disciples tell Jesus there is a problem. "It's getting late. There are no stadium lights here in the countryside; it will be dark soon. We are in a remote, desolate place. Everyone is hungry. There is no fast food near here. We thought we would fill you in on the situation, Jesus, just in case you didn't notice." In other words, Houston we have a problem. 

Of course they have it all figured out. They see the problem and they have a perfect solution. Done deal. It all makes so much sense. They just needed a little help with their plan. Jesus needed to be the One to send the crowd away. Once they fill Him in on His role and ask for His help, He will see their wisdom, and do as He is told. Everything is good. 

Oh my goodness! Isn't that us? We see a problem and then tell Jesus what He needs to do to remedy the situation. Like He doesn't already know. Like He doesn't have a plan of His own. A plan that is far better. A plan that is executed with EVERYTHING considered. Things we aren't even capable of being aware of. Past. Present. Future.

His gracious response, "You give them something to eat." They argue. "Ummmm, Jesus, do you have any idea how much it would cost to feed all those people?" He responds, "How many loaves of bread do you have?" "Go and see." I love how He patiently continues to ask questions and give them direction instead of engaging in the argument.

So the "go and see" is the word for me. I want to open my heart and mind to what God has to say about the seemingly impossible situations that come along in my life. Big things and little things. 

I hear Him gently inviting me to "go and see." Go and see what is beyond my line of vision. The endless possibilities that are out there just waiting for me. His plans to prosper me and give me a future that is good. He sees me. He knows me. He knows my needs. He knows my heart. He has things for me I can't even imagine right now. I need to look for those things and not spin my wheels dwelling on the things I perceive as problems and then telling Jesus what He needs to do for me. 

What happened that day was huge and He let them be a part of it. God help me to be open and even excited about the possibilities that are all around me if I would only "go and see."

Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge Him and
He will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6

Monday, May 19, 2014

My Good Shepherd


By this time it was late in the day, so His disciples came to Him. "This is a remote place, " they said, "and it's already very late. Send the people away so they can go to the surrounding countryside and villages and buy themselves something to eat." But He answered, "You give them something to eat."     Mark 6:35-37

This is a short passage of scripture but it sums up the disciples relationship with Jesus, at this point, so well. There were hungry people and the day was drawing to a close. This was a problem. But they had a plan. They went to Jesus to inform Him of the problem and explain exactly what He should do about it. Listen to the tone of this. They were bossing the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. Laughable.

The good thing is they did go to Him. But of course that was only because He had a part to play in their scheme. They wanted Him to send the people away. Other than that, they had it all taken care of.

Isn't that what I do? I see the problem and think of a solution and then go for it. My underlying thinking is, "By the way Lord, I have this one covered." It's like I don't want to bother Him with these things. And I certainly don't want to bother myself asking.

Jesus' response is classic. Of course He saw saw the problem but had a completely different solution. It was something they never would have thought of in a million years. He was going to have them feed the 5,000 with a few loaves and fishes. They argued with Him but decided to do as He asked and pulled off one of the most amazing miracles found in the gospels.

Lesson to self. 
1. Go to Jesus. Go often. Go without an agenda.
Listen to what He might have to say about the things that are going on with me. He has so often worked in my life in ways that are mindblowingly amazing. I never would have imagined how He was going to orchestrate things. 
2. Trust Him. Trust His plan even when things seem crazy and I see no way out. The previous verse, verse 34, says, 

"He saw a large crowd and had compassion on them 
because they were like sheep without a shepherd."  

Jesus has compassion on me too. He knows I need Him. He knows I am not capable of finding my way without Him. He is my good Shepherd and I need to trust His compassionate love and care for me.

This takes time and it takes intentionality. Spending quality time being with Jesus is the best use of time (my life). It is there my character is shaped and molded. It is there where my decisions are informed. His Word pours into my heart and my mind. Being with Him is where I find the greatest love of all. 

And from there I can go about my day and trust that He is with me and will take care of me, even when it is getting late and there is no food to be seen. He has ways that are beyond my thinking. I need to remember that my soul can rest, knowing that my compassionate good Shepherd holds me in the palm of His hand.